No Fronts

Haha, I love AA humor. It's cheese, but at the same time when you have an inside joke that only two heroin addicts understand, how not dark can it be? One of my favorites is the overused saying...I got the monkey off my back, but the circus is still in town. Every time someone says this I can hear the merry-go-round music do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do and imagine the wheels spinning. The planning, the cover ups, the scrambling, the hustling. Then the realization "Shit, wha?" I'm still fucking nuts. I'm not using anymore and yet I'm still trying to score fucking gift cards or fake a stamp on my frequent coffee card. Steal perfume samples at Macy's. I used to hustle for coke, now I'm trying to talk the guy at Goodwill into marking down these shoes after I pocketed the laces. The circus is not only in town, it's syphoning electricity from the meter at the carnival.

No fronts is another one. A person only has the sober time that they have in that moment and yet most addicts at one point or another will say I'll have four year next week. Then some old guy will yell in the meeting "No fronts". What does this mean? It means we're all burned out on fronting a bag to someone cause addicts are full of shit. Anything other than money in hand is a pipe dream. These old guys really seem to get a kick out of saying it too. This is just an endearing way of saying "you're full of shit".